so tired, I can't sleep. so hopeless, I can't dream. dizzy with exhaustion and a fear that nothing will ever change. what will become of me if I never sleep again? a wasted soul, a tortured soul trapped in these never-ending days. I cant say I quite feel numb, I wish I was, anything would be better than the deep aching in my heart and bones. to be numb without pain, without exhaustion, I'd even give up all happiness just to ease the pain and instead of living in the cold darkness surrounding me in agony, I'd live in the faint glow of numbness. though not entirely in a shining light, the glow will illuminate a path through this life and kee